As the World Literally Burns

This past weekend I stepped outside and walked for a few minutes before realizing that something was making me feel very content, comforted. I wondered if it was the more slanted, autumnal light. About 10 minutes in I realized that the air smelled like a campfire in a way that was soothing to me. At least until, a few minutes after that, I realized it was because Colorado is still, very much, on fire. We'd had a day or two of better air quality, as some rain had washed the haze away; but it was back with a vengeance, and half way through my walk, I knew things were going to have to be cut short.

Man, oh man, does it feel like the whole world is on fire right now. We've had some upheaval here recently. Nothing I can talk about right now, but just enough to make us all feel a little shaken. Its left me feeling very unbalanced. Things that should feel really good and positive just feel like too much instead. I'm giving myself grace and reminding myself to take time. Even with that, everything feels a little harder right now. 

Three days ago, the bottom fell out on the weather, and it dropped from the high 90s, to the mid-30s, basically overnight. We had sleeting, freezing rain, and then snow! 

It was just enough to be annoying, without being able to do anything with it, we're all freezing after such a huge drop in temps, and I'm worried this is going to kill all our autumn foliage before it even arrives. But! It is helping with the wildfires, so I'm hoping this will be a blessing in [cold, blanketed] surprise.

Maybe the rest of this will all turn out to be a blessing in disguise too? Maybe in the end, the discomfort I'm/we're feeling now will be growing pains? I guess only time will tell.