writers block

I'm having trouble writing lately. We've been doing plenty, keeping busy, having fun; and its not that there isn't plenty swirling through my mind, there's tons. But its all heavy and jumbled and I just don't know what to do with it. How to get it "on paper."

I adore my daughter, Trav and I are better then we've been in ages, I have tons of fun things that I'm looking forward to, there's so much to enjoy about life right now. Yet... I have this current of unease and dissatisfaction running through my veins.

There are moments in my job that are completely gratifying, but for the most part, I have no passion for it, no drive, and sometimes outright hate. I want to do something that makes a difference. I don't feel like I'm making any difference right now. I want to do something that motivates me. But I feel stuck. I have a mortgage and daycare costs.

There are things about our house that I like, changes we've made that I enjoy. But I want a single house, with no shared walls. I want trees, lots of them. I want a house that's new enough that every. single. project. doesn't become a huge ordeal.

There's more, but I just don't know how to explain it all. How to get it all out. I'll keep trying, but bear with me.



-- linking up with Just Write