off my chest

An email I sent to my family yesterday... I thought I would open the lines up to anyone here as well. I can use any help/suggestions I can get.

xoxox

I don't think I have ever been as miserable with my job as I am right now.

I've never been thrilled here. It's a nonprofit and runs like a nonprofit - disorganized, crappy salary, unpaid overtime, lots of grunt work... and frankly I'm so tired of all of it. It is boring, thankless work, and it leaves me completely unsatisfied. I'm not learning anything here and there is no promotion potential.

I want a job that I can get excited for, one that I look forward to... if not all the time, then at least more then not. Excited and this job aren't even on the same radar screen. It's just the opposite in fact, this job drains me... I can barely muster the energy to do what I need to do for it anymore. I just have no drive (well besides the "lets not get ourselves fired" drive).

I've felt like this for a while but the last time it got this bad was right before we started travelling around the country a few times a year (for one of our programs). That helped for a while, I love the travel part... seeing new places, especially ones I might not necessarily go on my own. But the newness of that is wearing off and the few times a year just aren't enough anymore.

I want to find a new job... but I don't know where to start, or how to go about finding what I want. Hell I'm not sure I even know exactly what I want, or at least, the right combination of what I want and what is feasible.

Plus, I don't even have much time to devote to job hunting... work fulltime, and my evenings are completely devoted to a side project I'm working on at the moment. I would love to just quit and sort it all out later... but there's that whole needing to pay the bills thing, which makes that completely unrealistic.

Any suggestions, words of wisdom, as of yet unrealized job connections, secret monetary stashes that you've been hiding away for just such an occation?

In any case, thanks for "listening".
Meegs

I do already feel better then when I wrote this (yesterday afternoon) because I had a LONG talk with my girl Babs, and she really helped me come up with some good ideas and reassured me that I don't have to be stuck. I may not get my dream job in the next two weeks, but if I work at it I will get a better job soon. I also now see that I have to stop pigeonholing myself just because I have an IR degree... I have to dream big and see what is out there that really drives me. So that's what I'm working on now. Wish me luck!


Ps. Had a fun spagetti & meatball dinner last night with Ro & Pat, and it was fabulous... at least I have great friends, who are great distractions!!